Dear Self,

When I said stop, I didn’t mean STOP stop. I mean, slow down. Yield if you will.

Dearest Wildlings,

You’ll notice that after my last post I kind of disappeared for 2 months. Yeah, sorry about that.

And I really wish it was because I was taking my own advice, slowing down and working on my hobbies and such. I really do. Though I did try hard to participate in weekly crafting videos on youtube, mostly I did absolutely nothing.

This year has not been kind to me so far. My physical and mental health are both out of whack, my work life has gone beyond out of what and into sinking ship territory. Early on I stated that this was not going to let this become one of the ‘woe is me’ blogs like all my others that I have started, whined on, ignored, then abandoned. Yet here I am, starting and ignoring this one. I’ve managed not to whine though, so it has that much going for it still.

For most of the past 2 months I’ve been thinking about what I WANT to do. Then I’ve been going online and watching other people do it. That is a bad habit for me.

Okay, that is NOT a bad habit for me. That is my old pal Executive Dysfunction rabidly waving hello while their best friend Overthinking is right there cheering them on. The rest of the Depression/Anxiety/ADHD cheer squad is sitting behind them, waiting to take their place when they get tired.

So instead of doing, I’m just sitting and watching. Scrolling… scrolling… scrolling.

Ya’ll know how that goes, right.

And we are also all smart people who know that if you keep doing the same thing, you are going to keep getting the same results.

I’ve just got to pull myself out of this facebook/instagram/tiktok scrolling rut and start implementing some of my wants.

This should be FUN!